I feel so good! Most of all… I “blame” myself for that beautiful summer. Also myself for stopping working like crazy. Also Davídek, who enjoys me when we run around the field together, play football and I let him wear a Spiderman suit or whatever he likes wherever he goes. And I “blame” our dinner at seven for that joy. It wasn’t always like that.
It can't have been that long ago, over scrambled eggs for dinner, my husband said: "Hey, everyone is jealous of me because I have Dita P." I didn't respond to that irony with a single sentence. Well, just one: "Tomorrow at seven at the table."
Our world stopped “tomorrow.” And it stops every night at seven.
In a minute seven I take off my apron, the table is set, always nicely, on my-our Embroidered Porcelain. At that moment I hear Mark kicking off his shoes in the hall: “What does it smell like in here” and I watch David cleverly climbing onto his chair. I’m telling you about these ordinary things that you probably have in your house too. We only had them sometimes. Until recently, David ate porridge, I ate “something from the fridge” and Marek ate what was left over from Sunday or some quick meal. Each at a different time and alone at the table. One snort over the fried eggs woke me up. I’ve had this beautiful ritual under my skin forever!
I don't know if I remember "since I was a child", but I've known since I was three that at five minutes to half past four, my mother and then Marika were standing at the bus stop for bus 190 and at exactly half past four, my father got off. He came from work. He had a brown bag hanging on his shoulder... we went on our bikes, grilled sausages, and rode down the artificial hills that grew in Jižní Město from the excavated foundations of apartment buildings on a baking tray. And then we went home.
It probably wasn't at seven, like it is now in our country, because Marika and I were already watching Večerníček in our pajamas. Mom must have had dinner prepared in advance, even though it wasn't anything complicated: French fries, pancakes, potato salad and so on. For me, those dinners together were nothing special back then. I sat next to my dad and didn't really enjoy talking while eating. Marika and I wanted to giggle, poke each other under the table and everything... Only when I grew up and remember that time, do I realize the meaning of our ritual dinners: they gave all four of us security, we are together at the table now and again tomorrow. We are at home. It doesn't matter what's going on outside, because we have dinner on plates with forget-me-nots, on a red tablecloth, it's warm and fun.
That's how it is at our home in Letná or at our cottage. Until now.
We sit together, Davídek will remember for the rest of his life that he ate from a plate "with lots of blue flowers", that he sat at the head of the table and had his mother on one side and his father on the other. And I enjoy our new anchor in the middle of the world so much that I secretly drag our table on a cart into the fields, cook and set it among the grain. I did that and then - just before seven - I called the boys: Run, I'm waiting for you at the cross.
I feel so good! The most...
